today was just one the ordinary stressful day of my life since i broke up with my gf of 26 months, 26 months of happiness and meaningful relationship we built for that time frame. I thought before i couldnt ruin the relationship that i always wanted especially with the girl who really loved me all these time and still lovig me even though i caused pain in her wounded heart. I'm asking myself now how ive come to this set up. I had turned my back to the girl i loved truly over the time for someone who i just got excited with. My girl was not perfect i know but i had learned to love her with those imperfections, but still caused her the pain that almost took her life because she gave her all to me.I am missing her so much these past few days and slowly realizing that i am not really in love with the girl i am with right now.I dont know what to do, if i will go back to the world we built by the the i know i still love or look forward to the future with the girl i know i am secured with, but i know i am also secured with my girl. ''i am really lost' please give signs of where to go, light that will make my heart grow and smile.
what should i do.... i dont know
